i am far from perfect. to those who know me well, that comes as no surprise. i am a firm believer that God uses our flaws to show us how we can become more like Him. i am also a firm believer that He can use every single experience in life to make a person into the man or woman He wants them to be. through a couple of brokenhearted prayers and a lot of thought this week, i have discovered that those two things go hand-in-hand in my life right now.
this year has been a tough one... and i won't try to say it hasn't. of course, some wonderful things have happened, and i praise God so much for the blessings He's given me this year. i feel i have grown up a lot and learned a lot about myself. but unfortunately, it hasn't been all roses. some of the experiences i've had this year have been quite devastating. i have come to see the effects of those things recently.
i've become calloused and hardened in some ways, and i never even realised it until now. it breaks my heart to see that. it is my deepest and most sincere prayer that God will give me back the pieces of myself that i lost this year. i pray that He will heal my heart and restore me. i desire so badly for Him to make something beautiful from the ashes i have to offer Him.
